𝓔𝓷𝓭𝓵𝓮𝓼𝓼ৎ୭𝓣𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱𝓽𝓼

𝓔𝓷𝓭𝓵𝓮𝓼𝓼ৎ୭𝓣𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱𝓽𝓼 

Tomorrow⇎10/20/24

Should have known.......

Same feeling every time.

I will never be "enough"  Or  Do "enough"

I understand that and accept it.  However the heartbreak never goes away.

Instantly walking on eggshells.   Mood changed as quickly as the snap of my fingers. 

I am  Constantly wondering what I did wrong even when your not mad.

My head may explode......or possibly melt.

This is not what I planned, or even closely  envisioned. 

This is what I have though. 

There have been a lot of highs and a lot of lows, and a million and one things to do differently, I still would not change a single thing.

Every week you find a reason to pick a fight.  

I keep telling you......

......I am not ok......I am tired......drained

....that something is wrong.

Stop twisting my words, feelings, and emotions or telling me what I am going through~You have no clue.

My thoughts alone continuously try to drown me on a daily basis..Heads up; currently they are winning.

There is barely any fight left in me.     I have a lot less to say.......

Mentally I have made peace  with leaving this earth and you should know that I am ready.

Physically numb, tired of trying. Mentally drowning in my thoughts.

ღ𝓓𝓪𝓭𝓭𝔂𝔃•◦❥◦•𝓠𝓾𝓮𝓮𝓷ৎ୭